Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Stop the Glorification of Busy
I haven't written in a full week, and that is pretty unusual for me. The reason for my silence is that I have been pretty sick. I started out feeling a little sluggish about six days ago but I couldn't slow down. I had too much to do.
I work full time. I volunteer two nights a week. I am in three Bible studies. I am work with the Historical Society here in town. I am in a discipleship training class. I am pursing my teaching certification... and the test is rapidly approaching (October 21st!) and I am really nervous.
I am busy.
So when my body started to say "HEY SLOW DOWN!" I chose to ignore it because I don't have time to slow down. I have all this stuff to do. I can't possibly miss a meeting of the Historical Society, then I won't know what is going on! How could I not attend my Bible study? They might think less of me. I can't miss a night of volunteering, I am needed there.
Saturday morning a friend called me and said she really needed to talk, she asked if we could meet for coffee. Of course I said yes. Saturday night I had a baby shower an hour and a half away from my home. Sunday I went to church and then to a bridal shower then to a Bible study. I was feeling pretty rough but I couldn't let anyone down.
Sunday night my body crashed. I was in the middle of making dinner and I just shut down. I sat on the kitchen floor until the room stopped spinning and I worked up the courage to call my roommate for help.
Between being sick and exhausted I didn't have anything left.
I went to the doctor and guess what she told me to do? Drink plenty of fluids and REST. My thought was somewhere along the lines of "yeah right". I listened politely and then went home with the intention of getting all the things on my to-do list done. I sat down to do my quiet time and Exodus 14:14 was my verse for the day. It says, "The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still". Being involved in all the activities in the world doesn't mean anything if my body is falling apart. How can I be of help to other people if I can't take care of myself? Sometimes it is ok for us to say no, to say I can't. Sometimes it is ok to be still. When we are at our weakest the Lord will fight for us, we just have to be still and let Him.