I love a competition.
Being told that I can't do something or that I am not enough is fantastic motivation for me.
But what happens when that competitive spirit gets the better of you?
When I was fighting for promotions at work in high school and college it was easy to understand the competition. I was a waitress, a bartender, a secretary, and a receptionist. It was easy to see what I needed to do in order to be the best and I did it with fervor.
Now I am a nanny, I am the only childcare provider for these kids. There is no one for me to compete with, no one for me to compare myself to. You would think that this would remove some of the pressure... you would be wrong. I plan out our weeks and the activities that we will do. I read parenting and homeschooling blogs to make my lesson plans. These women not only sew, cook, and clean for their families, they also take the time to blog about it!
Let me tell you, THAT can make you feel inferior!
But I came across a verse recently that helped with that feeling of inferiority. Philippians 2: 3-4 "Do nothing our of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interest of others". So what if the mother at (insert blog name here) can cook a four course meal, knit a baby blanket, and home school her other six kids all at one time. She is superwoman and I am not.
I work for each of my children to insure that they get the best care that I can give them. I want to be the best for them. It is ok if we don't follow the lesson plans exactly. It is ok if they have a PB&J for lunch because we played too long at the park. It is ok because I am doing the work God called me to do.
Life is not a competition, there is no need for me to feel inferior because I am fulfilling God's plan for my life. This is the role God has assigned me for now, so I will submit myself to His authority and work where he has placed me.