This picture popped up on my Google reader today. I feel like it perfectly explains where I am at right now.
I am struggling this week.
I am battling fear and uncertainty.
I work full-time as a nanny but I am currently studying for my Teaching Certification Test in Special Education. I am applying for teaching jobs in DFW. I volunteer at a rape crisis center and at the library here. I am in two Bible studies and a discipleship training class.
...and yet the fear remains.
I am doing things that I love, and I am working towards where I am supposed to be. But, I am still struggling with a nagging fear at the back of my mind. With my personality uncertainty is incredibly uncomfortable. It makes me very anxious to not have a sure plan, a clear path. "Until God opens the next door for you, praise Him in the hallway." How awesome is that? God is opening doors, but right now I am still in the hallway. I have found comfort in clinging to John 14:27 which says, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid". So, while I am here in the in-between phase I will praise Him, with complete faith in His plan.
I have His peace, to help ease my fears and worries.